Hey there, I woke up quite early today, it was because my sister controlled the air conditioner and made me feel freezing cold.
I have no idea why I'd like to write this post, I know this sounds annoying but writing makes my mind stop awhile and think more about what's happening around, I guess. As it's so near to the celebration of Chinese New Year, I feel so scared yet so excited to go back to my hometown where I've gone back since January last year. Even so, I have never felt nostalgic as the ways people used to treat me have made me so unwillingly to love them. Well, I should forgive them and start to love them. I guess, I should go and find out about the reasons in the mean time (As I really don't understand why can relatives be so cold to me. WHY? Tell me.).
Knowing that my friends who went for national service are back, the results will be out very soon. I can't predict anything. Sometimes, I just hate how I think. Thinking of how people are better than me, how weak and bad I'm. Thinking too much sometimes doesn't actually help, actions are supposed to be taken after feeling bad about myself. I'll do it, my aim of life is just to be a small person who contributes to the society and more importantly shine for God so as to witness Him. Why on earth do I still worry and compare so much? Sinful thoughts shouldn't be conquering me!
Wow, this sounds so motivating to me. Alright, I have to make full use of my time. Spending time to love people around, working hard for God academically and behave well (I wanna be a good kid). Well, if you know me well, I'm kinda crazy about doing anything. I always like to put in as much effort as I have into doing a thing. You probably know that, I'm extremely limited and small in making things to be successful. But I guess everyone is the same, right? This is also when one dies in failure and finds the way to make through it through the Almighty God. Pretty amazing, isn't it? Failures lead us to look for God. I don't mean that you must always fail, but it's just a blessings when God doesn't want you to do things all by yourself but with and in Him. And, I suppose, this is how a Christian witnesses for God.
As time passes, I need to change and have breakfast with my family before going to college. Let the love goes beyond the time. Time is such a blessing from God to everyone who lives on the earth. That's why we're experiencing 4D on the earth. <3 Physics, it's so related to God when you start to link the together.
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| It's me, taken by Elisa in Hyde Park, London. |
With love,
Emily
16/02/2015
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